If Anyone’s Wondering Why I Haven’t Really Been Myself Lately…

…It’s probably because I kinda lost myself a while ago. I’ve been through a lot of changes in the past couple years – I would binge eat, then I would starve myself. I was fat, then I was fit. I would party all night, then I would study all night. I was super single, then I was super taken. I wore barely any clothes and then I wore more¬†clothes than I was comfortable in. I finally graduated from college with a Graphic Design diploma only to switch over to Marketing in uni. I gave up drawing porn for money (yep) to open an online store and then got bored of that and started a personal brand on Instagram and now that that’s peaking I’ve decided to start a blog. One minute I was hot, one minute I was cold and the next minute I was burned out. Sometimes I’m a dick and sometimes I’ll buy you lunch.

I think one thing that changed me for the better was starting a healthier lifestyle earlier this year. I stopped eating trash (in some cases quite literally) and started working out. I watched my stamina quadruple and my body improve Рat first I struggled to jog 2.5km at a 7km/h pace, and at my peak I was able to run 5km at a 14km/h pace. I did lose a fair amount of weight because of it and I felt empowered by the control I gained over my body and mind.

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At 59kg on the left and 49kg on the right!

Unfortunately it got to the point where I kinda didn’t recognize myself anymore. At first I’d see myself in pictures and think “Well that doesn’t really look like me… Lemme take another #selfie”. And then I’d walk past¬†a reflective surface and be like “Lol that chick is wearing the same outfit as me… Wait”. I’d see myself in Skype calls and get really confused, because the live video stream of myself wasn’t the me I knew. My face had changed dramatically (you can probably see for yourself in the picture above) and I literally didn’t recognize the person I was looking at, and this kinda got me super distressed.

I guess once I stopped being able to recognize my face I kinda started grasping at straws to find a mask that was somewhat similar to the person I was familiar with. I jumped from one identity to another, tried on a few different personalities while I was at it. I started multiple Instagram accounts and conveyed different sides of myself on all of them hoping to find one that would “fit” (I didn’t, and now just manage two, hazekitten and cyberxkitten).

It’s been roughly 6 or 7 months now since I realized I no longer knew myself. And even worse, I no longer knew who I wanted to be. I don’t know how I want to dress, I don’t know how I want to cut my hair, I don’t know how I wan to wear my makeup and I don’t know how I want to speak. I’m very uncomfortable in my own skin at the moment.

But I’m coming to terms with this and trying to tell myself that it’s okay. I don’t have to be the same thing every day. It’s fine if I want to be a different person every week and it’s fine if I want to be loud and crass in the a.m.¬†and meek and studious¬†in the p.m.

I don’t normally buy into this New Year, New Me bullshit but I’m hoping in 2016 I regain a bit more of that control I had before. I’m hoping to get to know myself again, once I’ve decided to stop being more than one person. And if I don’t ever decide to stop I guess that’s cool too. I’ll just be all the things I want to be, whenever I want to be them. I’ll just be and not worry about what thing I’m being.

I’m not being fake – I know I probably come across fake – I’m being as genuine as possible by not just being one thing because I guess that just isn’t me at this point in time.

Special thanks to my boyfriend for putting up with my constant freakouts over who to be on any given day, and loving all the people I identify as. And also to my closest friends for never questioning me even though I can tell they probably think I’m being weird at times.

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Lonely Magpie Haul!

Hi everyone! ¬†I can’t believe how quickly my time in KL has flown and just tomorrow I’ll be heading back to London! On one hand I’m looking forward to seeing my boyfriend again, but on the other hand I’m really gonna be missing the warmth and familiarity of this place. Anyways!

Today I’m reviewing one of my favourite jewelry stores Lonely Magpie. They specialize in gorgeous whimsical creations like the ones I’ll be showing you in a minute! I have plenty of their¬†charm chokers, but they do have some other items as well such as necklaces, rings and anklets. I’m gonna be talking about their chokers because within the first month of discovering Lonely Magpie I already have like… Idk at least 5 or 6 of their chokers hehe.

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The first one I bought from them is their Rose Quartz Arrowhead choker with an Ohm charm (¬£3.99). The charms are interchangeable and you can choose from a variety of cute knick knacks to accompany your pendant. I’m a huge sucker for rose quartz so I was particularly enamoured by this design!

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I also got Rose Quartz Heart choker and a pretty little crescent moon charm on an adjustable pink cord. Once again I chose from a selection of charms to put on my pink choker, and I was very happy with the variety they provided!

One thing I have to say though, while¬†these chokers can withstand every day wear, they’re pretty delicate. For example¬†the link on my Rose Quartz Arrowhead pendant has gotten caught on my clothes a couple of times and opened up, causing my pendant to fall off… Luckily I managed to save¬†it every time and reattaching it to the cord isn’t too difficult since the metal used for the link is quite soft and malleable.

Pleased with my first order, I posted a few pictures on Instagram because I was told I could get a ¬£5 voucher for my next order if they reposted my picture on their page, which to my surprise they did! You’re probably thinking ¬£5 isn’t a lot, but with many of their chokers available for a Buy 2 Get 1 Free deal and most of them costing only between ¬£2 and ¬£4 you can actually do a lot with it! The moment I received my ¬£5 discount code I pretty much immediately ordered another batch of chokers. Here they are!

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I’m particularly pleased with these babies! The three charm chokers I purchased with the Buy 2 Get 1 Free deal and I have to say they’re absolutely adorable! Perfect little stocking stuffers, I got the Lotus one for myself and the Saturn and Moon & Star ones for Marie and Ruby. They’re all on adjustable cords. The¬†Blue¬†Goldstone¬†pendant is especially beautiful, I love the little sparkles within the gem and they’re very reflective! It’s my current day to day choker, I love it to death!

CYMERA_20151117_123506What else do I have to say about Lonely Magpie… Like I said, they have a great selection and definitely something for everyone. I especially love the ethereal element they put into their collections as that is what drew me to their store in the first place! I can tell their products are made with love and they love their customers as well, offering every returning customer a 10% discount code that comes with their parcels. Their parcels themselves are very nicely packaged, sadly I don’t have any pictures but believe me when I say I’ll give them a A for presentation! Let’s not forget the Free UK Shipping, which is something I LIVE for since I moved to London! I’m definitely looking forward to shopping at Lonely Magpie again and I’m very happy they allowed me to publish this article on them because it’s an absolute honour to have such lovely content on my blog¬†thanks to them!


Want me to review or promote your product or brand? I’m always happy to help out companies that cater to my kind of weirdness! Feel free to email me at annaxmaki@gmail.com or drop me a DM on Instagram, or even just leave a comment below¬†‚ô• Looking forward to hearing from you!

 

🌸 A Common Beauty Mistake You Might Be Making | Korean Face Mask Review 🌸

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Hi guys! After three months in the cold, dry London air (and one night of super heavy drinking at Changkat with Marie) my skin was looking a bit dull and lackluster, so the moment I got the chance in KL I picked up Hold Me Tight (a lifting and firming mask) and Miss Invisible Pore (a pore tightening mask) from the Korean brand Faith in Face. There was also a whitening mask available, but since I’m not interested in looking pale I gave that a pass. These masks are¬†pretty pricey, but I was willing to pay a little bit extra for the quality! And as a marketing student I’m a sucker for cute packaging. Faith in Face¬†masks are paraben free, with no added mineral oil and free from animal testing! Yay!

The packs are pretty text heavy, which I like because I’m always up for a few extra tips and tricks. Thanks for the advice, Betty!

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So tonight I washed all my makeup off and now I’ve got Hold Me Tight on my face. Just FYI, Faith in Face specializes in hydrogel masks, which are a bit¬†different from fabric sheet masks in the sense that they’re meant to be a whole lot more nourishing¬†and moisturizing, and they’re also a whole lot more squishy and stretchy which makes them pretty fun to play with! They have very soft jelly-like consistency which is super¬†soothing on the skin. ¬†Some of the key ingredients in Hold Me Tight include:

  • Copper Tripeptide – Known to liven and firm the skin without irritation
  • Rooibos Extract and Red Ginseng Extract – Popular Korean ingredients known to reduce stress and improve firmness in skin
  • Adenosine – Reduces the appearance of wrinkles

The mask itself comes in two pieces РOne covers the top half of your face and the other piece goes over your jawline, chin and lips. Pretty convenient if you ask me. The mask halves come fully enveloped in protective film for ease of application!

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It took me a little while to get these on my face, but I eventually managed without too much hassle! I’m not gonna post any face mask selfies because I happen to find those pretty creepy and all round unflattering.¬†Anyways!

So about that one big mistake you’re probably making with your face masks… Typically you’re meant to leave them on for 20-30 minutes. A lot of the time I find myself leaving my masks on for way longer, cos like, that probably gives you better results, right? Super wrong. I’ve found that leaving your face mask on for longer than 30 minutes can trap bacteria under your mask and cause you to break out! Make sure to remove your mask about 25 minutes in to avoid acne, ain’t nobody got time fo dat. Life is hard as it is I know u hear me.

Here’s a close up of the back of the pack for you to read while I remove my mask.

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Normally I wash my face off with water after removing a mask because I feel kinda¬†sticky and gross, but Hold Me Tight leaves a silky smooth residue that my skin¬†absorbed almost right away, so I’m leaving it on overnight! I’m not feeling any immediate tightening effects, but being in my 20s my skin isn’t all that saggy anyways. I do feel refreshed and my face does feel somewhat hydrated though! I’ll check in again in the morning to let you guys know if the bounce factor has improved. Night night!

EDIT// Oh. My. GOD. YOU GUYS MY FACE IS SO SMOOTH AND FIRM. I went to bed like “Nahh lmao this isn’t gonna do shit” but omg when I woke up this morning my skin is super taut and bouncy. I couldn’t stop touching my face all day! It’s nearly 9pm now and my skin still feels refreshed and soft.¬†I’m very happy to report this product lives up to my expectations and I can’t wait to try Miss Invisible Pore! If it works as well as Hold Me Tight I’ll definitely be stocking up on Faith in Face products before I head back to London. You can get these at most leading pharmacies, I got mine at Watson’s for aroud RM10!


 

Want me to review or promote your product or brand? I’m always happy to help out companies that cater to my kind of weirdness! Feel free to email me at cyberxkitten@gmail.com or drop me a DM on Instagram, or even just leave a comment below¬†‚ô• Looking forward to hearing from you!

Oh Weekend Review & Discount Code!

 

0w3Hey guys! I’ve got another discount code for you! Recently I got picked to promote the super chic Oh Weekend store. I’m absolutely dying to receive my welcome pack (the contents are a mystery to me at the moment but I honestly can’t wait to get it! I’m definitely making another post to show off my welcome goodies when I do receive them!) but I thought I’d start by telling you guys a bit more about my new favourite store! Keep reading to find my special discount code just for you at the end of my post (;

Oh Weekend is based in the UK, and they ship worldwide for under ¬£5! They’ve got a wide variety of lush apparel like the Oxblood Velvet Bomber Jacket¬†(¬£18) you see above, which also comes in black. Absolutely gorgeous! Most of their items are a steal at down low prices under ¬£20 or even under ¬£15, like my personal favourite the Lace Bralette in black, which you can get at an incredible ¬£10!

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#wishlist!!

 

Most of the items over at Oh Weekend are pretty versatile, you can take them from day to night to almost any occasion in between! Lavish luxury at seriously affordable prices is a rarity when it comes to online stores, but Oh Weekend’s got you¬†covered. They’ve got co-ords, crop tops, coats, jackets, dresses, tops and many more! Did I mention they offer free shipping within the UK?! I’m actually very impressed at the wide selection found on their store and I look forward to seeing more. If only they had a section for bags and accessories! But I’m sure they’ll look into that at some point (;

 

Here’s a list of my favourite things about Oh Weekend!

  • Gorgeous selection of seriously chic attire. Such vogue, very style. I would wear the fuck out of ALL OF THEIR CLOTHING LET ME TELL U
  • Their prices are very reasonable for such high quality apparel! I mean this is the kind of stuff you would normally have to pay ¬£40 or ¬£50 for from a high street label!
  • These clothes look great on their own and even better layered with other items from your closet! It can be difficult creating a comprehensive look some days, but Oh Weekend provides effortless style and while staying kind to your wallet.
  • Oh Weekend couture is sooo versatile. I’m the kind of person who will wear the same thing every single day because I cbf to coordinate, but with Oh Weekend’s lush looks you could take your #ootd from weekend brunch to dinner and drinks easy peas!
  • Free UK shipping and worldwide flat rate shipping. Can you beat that?! Once again. Flat rate. Worldwide. Shipping. For under ¬£5 you can have your parcel of happiness delivered delivered right to your doorstep wherever you are in the world!

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So there you have it guys, and before you thank me for finding your new fave, I have just one more thing for you. If you’re still not convinced, I’m gonna give you a whopping 20% off your whole purchase at Oh Weekend.¬†Use the code “KITTEN20” at checkout to redeem your discount! This code is only up for a limited amount of time so hurry on over to their store if you don’t want to miss out! Once you’ve used it though, you can continue to use it. Forever. FOREVER GUYS. Oh, and of course, check out their Insta feed for a daily dose of fashion and to stay updated on their sales and special announcements!

Don’t you just long for the weekend now?

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It’s physically impossible to own too many crop tops, especially when they cost ¬£10 (or ¬£8 with my discount code!)

Want me to review or promote your product or brand? I’m always happy to help out companies that cater to my kind of weirdness! Feel free to email me at cyberxkitten@gmail.com or drop me a DM on Instagram, or even just leave a comment below¬†‚ô• Looking forward to hearing from you!

Skinny Bunny Detox Tea Review

Hay gais! In 24 hours I’ll be headed back to KL and I’m super stoked! But I thought I’d squeeze in one more review before I get on my flight back home from London. Today I’ll be reviewing Skinny Bunny’s Detox tea!

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For those of you who don’t know, Skinny Bunny is a brand that makes tea (and now bikinis) for the health (well, let’s be honest, weight) conscious. They have two kinds of Weight Loss teas (one for the morning and one for bedtime), and one Detox tea for night time use. They’re $15 each and come with a couple of free workout and diet guides as well, which are pretty handy IF you haven’t got a workout and diet plan for yourself, but for those who are serious about a healthier lifestyle I strongly suggest you come up with a more personalized plan. I’ve never been one to buy into¬†the hype about detox teas and the like, but a while ago I decided to give their Detox version a try.

Their Detox tea is a Tropical Chamomile flavor, as you can probably see on the tin. You can also get a Lemon flavor. They come in either 14-day ($15) or 28-day ($30) supplies and as mentioned on the site are meant to provide you with vitamins, antioxidants and immune system support. You can probably tell I’m not buying this, but maybe I’m just a super skeptic when it comes to miraculous quick fixes.

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Upon opening the tin I was surprised with a very pleasant scent of tropical fruits — This tea is delightfully fragrant! I got the 14-day supply and the tea itself is packaged in 14 pretty little pyramid bags, however there were no strings attached to the bags for easy removal after infusion. Here’s a closer look at the bags.

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Now this tea is meant to “detoxify” me. I haven’t yet come across any information as to what exactly I am meant to be detoxified of; as far as I’m concerned my liver and kidneys should have that kinda thing covered. But it smells pretty good so I’m gonna give it a go. Here are my pros and cons!

Pros:

  • It smells great and doesn’t taste utterly horrible. In fact, it doesn’t taste bad at all; my boyfriend says it “tastes like earth” but the flavor is not unlike most teas. Unfortunately the fragrance doesn’t permeate through to the taste, but I’m happy with it overall since I have tried some pretty vile teas in the past.
  • It gives me awesome sleeps. I generally don’t sleep very well as it is, but Skinny Bunny’s Detox tea pretty much knocks me out after about 20 minutes¬†and I sleep pretty soundly through the¬†night! Which, if you’ve read my previous post, is a luxury I can’t always afford. This is a massive plus point for me!
  • The worldwide shipping is pretty quick and they have some pretty reasonable¬†bundle deals on their site, too.
  • The workout plan I got with my order was actually pretty inspiring, and lead me to learn about HIIT, a program which has become the core of all my workouts. However, without further research and a deeper understanding the guides themselves aren’t really that great.

Cons:

  • It’s pretty damn pricey¬†guys. The only reason I keep buying this tea is because a full night’s sleep is a rarity and I’m very happy with the quality of sleep this tea provides.
  • I don’t feel detoxified and, since most detox teas are meant to help you lose weight, from this angle I can’t say it’s very effective. I know it doesn’t expressly say anywhere it will help you lose weight, but let’s be real, it’s called Skinny Bunny, not Clean Colon Bunny.

All in all not a terrible product, but if you sleep well on your own I don’t recommend Skinny Bunny. Even if you do want to experience better sleeps there are plenty of chamomile teas in the shops and if you’re looking to lose weight or live better, you’ll need to change your approach. Perhaps approach a treadmill or a salad… But that’s just me. Later taters!


 

Want me to review or promote your product or brand? I’m always happy to help out companies that cater to my kind of weirdness! Feel free to email me at cyberxkitten@gmail.com or drop me a DM on Instagram, or even just leave a comment below¬†‚ô• Looking forward to hearing from you!

My Neighbour Omfg…

I don’t even know where to start with this one, so I’ll try and start from the beginning. None of my friends even know the whole story yet because this is so FUCKING LONG, so here it is gais!

Basically I moved into Wenlock Court¬†about 3 months ago and this bitch¬†moved in next door around the same time. Right from the start she was making noise at night, screaming with her friends and slamming every single door within reach. This would keep me up until 4 or 5 in the morning… Not ideal. So I started calling security on her and lodging complaints at the main reception.

I think she had like 5 or 6 complaints and reports against her within the first month. She made absolutely no effort to keep it down whatsoever to the point where I now know every single mundane detail of her life because I can hear every single conversation. At one point she was even involved in a terrifying physical altercation with another girl in her room and I could hear beating and screaming sounds. One night I called security as usual, and she and her friends were caught smoking weed. I thought for sure that would be the end of it, but she was issued a £500 fine and nothing else was done to ensure the quiet and peaceful enjoyment of the room I had already paid for, a year in advance. I am NOT a happy customer.

Let me just say that I have trouble sleeping. I always have. If I’m woken up even once that’s it… No more sleep for me. Her keeping me up at night means I get 3-4 hours a sleep per night, and I literally have not had ONE full night of sleep since I moved in. Not one. Just let that sink in for a minute. Imagine having one night of shitty sleep and how that affects your entire day. Multiply that by roughly 90.

Anyway, one night I woke up at around 5am because her friends were banging on her door for like 10 minutes straight, so I opened my door and was like “Hey guys could you maybe keep it down (:” and this MASSIVE SEA MAMMAL started stomping towards me yelling at me asking why I was complaining and what my problem was (I thought I had made my problem pretty clear, but these people are DENSE AS FUCK) and then interrogated me as to what my name was, what I was studying etc all the while trying to shove¬†her way into my room. I tried to close the door on her and she pushed it open and continued to abuse me until someone else pulled her away.

Obviously the following night was noisy as well. So I called security for what seemed to be the millionth time. They weren’t very happy about that, and started banging on my door screaming at me and basically abusing me because they couldn’t comprehend why someone would call security on such nice¬†reasonable people. The security guard was completely¬†useless and did nothing to help me, not even when they demanded he use his master key to open my door.

This was about 3 weeks ago. Since then I contacted the student halls manager, the student adjudication team from the uni and the duty manager regarding my situation and it’s taking them forever to deal with it. Apparently this is because it’s part of a “wider investigation” and I’m not the only person complaining about her so they’re trying to compile all the complaints I guess.

Anyway. Last week she basically LOST. HER. W H O L E. SHIT.

At around 9 in the evening I was on Skype with Marie when all of a sudden my neighbour and her friends exploded out of her room and literally started shrieking down the hallway, banging on all the doors and freaking the FUCK OUT because someone (me hehe) had left a ¬†note earlier about them being too primitive to know how to operate a door. A couple of people opened their doors to them but shut them immediately when they found a herd of fucking¬†walruses outside in bath robes. I knew they only wanted to get to me though, but I called security instead and meanwhile recorded their hysterical screaming on my phone. Security arrived about 30 seconds later and my neighbour immediately honed in on him, all like “Omg you need to open her door NOW, she’s PASSED OUT in there WE NEED TO SAVE HER LAWD HAVE MERCY” and the security guard, acting on impulse, opened my door and she just BARGED RIGHT IN and I was like “Bitch wtf??”. When the guard heard me he pushed her aside to get to me first and I demanded to know what was going on. Fatty was all “Omg I was so worried about you, I thought you had passed out in there are you okay omg” I was just like “Really.” and played back the recording of her trying to break my door down from just 5 seconds before. Her face pretty much went white and she just turned away and walked off.

Can I just? How the fuck would you know if someone has passed out in ANOTHER ROOM? ALSO I was speaking on Skype and you can hear me talking through the door. 10000% LIE and she had to pick the stupidest lie in the world to gain illegal access to my room.

Anyway, I was escorted to emergency accommodation IN ANOTHER BUILDING because they feared for my safety, I called the cops who came the next day (they found her and a guy smoking weed in her room) and yesterday I got a call from Jon (the guy from uni who is handling my case) being vaguely cryptic, saying he couldn’t give me too much information but “the thing we really want to happen is happening this evening, you shouldn’t have to suffer like this anymore after tonight”. I’m really hoping this means she’s getting evicted or even expelled from uni.

I haven’t heard from anyone since yesterday so I’m on the edge of my seat waiting to find out what’s happening to her, but she’s in there right now banging and slamming about more than usual so I’m hoping she’s packing her drug abuse paraphernalia and getting the fuck out of here very soon *cry-laughing emoji*

Shop Emmin Review

So guise I’m gonna be posting reviews right away! Today I’ll be reviewing Shop Emmin, a delightful little store based in the UK for chic¬†accessories and the like. They recently sent me some gorgeous faux septum rings which I absolutely just fell in love with! I’m not usually one for accessories myself but these babies are to die for! Oh, and did I mention they ship worldwide? Gotta love that international shipping!

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I have such a serious need for like, ALL THOSE CASES lbr

If you click on the link I provided earlier you’ll be taken to their online store where you’ll find a variety of seriously trendy accessories, including the ever popular Dakota¬†Marble Effect Phone Case… Another reason why I CRI¬†because I don’t have an iPhone and probably never will because my Android-loyal boyfriend would disown me IMMEDIATELY. However I’m happy enough with my three gorgeous septum rings huehue. Their phone cases range between ¬£4-¬£6 and if you ask me that’s a bargain! I will be eternally grateful when they¬†start producing covers for the Samsung Galaxy, but for now I’ll just have to leave the cute cases for you Apple types.

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Too cute! Pria septum ring in copper, and Zoa septum rings in gold and silver!

On to my super adorable faux septum rings that I mentioned earlier! Look how pretty they are! I’m actually surprised at how quality they are too, I’ve had them for a couple weeks now and they haven’t broken or chipped or anything! The copper Pria septum ring is embedded with several diamente rhinestones, which you would normally expect to fall off within like 0.3 seconds but they’ve been intact all this while. They’re pretty comfy to wear too! You can shop these gorgeous faux septum rings and many more designs at Shop Emmin, but you might want to act fast because they’re selling out so so quick¬†and you honestly don’t want to miss out! In addition to iPhone cases and faux septum rings they also have makeup brushes, metallic temporary tattoos and a few more goodies that I’m gonna leave you guys to find out for yourselves.

The cherry on top? I have a special discount code for you (; Quote “cyberxkitten” at checkout to receive a special secret discount just for you! Hurry though, stocks are limited! Oh, and don’t forget to check out their Instagram where they are currently hosting a giveaway so you don’t even have to pay to get your hands on these lush items!